Rindu itu Indah

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...
Assalammualaikum wbt...

Kadangkala, timbul perasaan rindu pada masa lalu yang indah..

Sekolah Rendah


Senyum pun terukir di bibir bila teringat zaman kanak2 yang penuh dgn tawa riang dan mesra bersama rakan2.. Zaman naik pentas bila dapat no. 1 dalam kelas, menari, menyanyi.. Masuk pertandingan Hafazan.. Otak masih fresh, suci.. Alhamdulillah, semuanya senang diingat..

Sekolah Menengah, YSKL 2000-2004

Hari kian berlalu dan mendewasakan.. Terbang bersama ke negeri orang, menimba ilmu dan pengalaman.. Teringat masa pertama kali maw berpisah dgn family di airport.. Bila pegawai YS sebut " serahkanlah anak2 tuan/puan pada kami.." Terasa hiba sangat..iyalah..Masih form 1.. Belum pernah berjauhan.. Tapi itulah titik mua utk segalanya..

Cuti semester pula, benda paling ditunggu2 sbb masa tula akan berkumpul dgn kawan2 dari sabah yang lain..Dari perlis sampai ke Johor, Semua akan berkumpul.. Macam adik beradik yang sda terpisah.. huhu.. Masa mula2 jumpa happy sangat, Tp part maw balik semua pun sedih.. Especially bdak2 sekolah sy yang sememangnya selalu jadi group last yg akan balik.. Dengan kata lain, yg selalu agkatkan beg kawan2.. Klu balik, teda yang hantar pun..hehe..

Rindu sangat.. Banyak betul kenangan kan?

Matrikulasi Labuan

Walaupun setahun, tp tetap menghadiahkan senyuman bila terlintas di ingatan.. Kenal ramai kawan baru.. Ada yang berterusan sampai jadi family angkat :) Ada yang hilang begitu sahaja.. Apa2 pun, dari situ la bermulanya pilihan untuk masuk ke universiti.. Ada yang separuh jalan, sebab dapat tawaran MARA, JPA.. tp sempat juga merasa belajar di matriks kan? Tahniah2..


Walau dimana pun kawan2 semua berada sekarang, semoga di bawah perlindungan Allah SWT.. Semoga semuanya berjalan lancar.. Tabahkan diri menghadapi ujian dari-Nya..

*Yang kurang motivasi tu, kuatkan hati ok? Tinggal sikit ja lagi perjalanan.. Doa banyak2..

Semoga sy menjadi insan yang lebih baik dari yang sebelum ini anda kenal.. Siapa pun saya sebelum ini, jahat mahupun baik, tolong doakan saya tidak mengulangi kesilapan dan tetap menyuburkan sifat baik dalam diri.. InsyaAllah...

Ameen...

sWEety-thOUgHT

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

Assalammualaikum wbt...

Yeah. Off the 'Bung'!

This is one of new terms which I found during my scheduled-trainings in the ward.. Sounds funny, but that's the fact.. You know what is mean by Off the 'bung'? hehe..

Remove cannula/insyte/branula..

Huhu... Banyak juga yg sudah ketinggalan.. Whatever pun, life is all about learning, right?!

Okie, for those who did not gain your confident yet in preparing yourself as a real staff nurse; here some guidance which I supposed should be relevant to be used:

- Please, at least be confident as MUCH as you can, as you're wearing a 'never-be-afraid' uniform. If you still  afraid, it is very important to show your confidence in front of patients, otherwise, never try to do procedure to them as you might be 'bung' away from their sight!

- Do not hesitate to ask your senior staff for any unsure procedures, medications and whatever else even if you feel that it's an idiot to be asking the question. xpa senior rimas sekarang..at least you learn, ok!

- Never ever pretend that you're soooooo knowledgable or skillful which might cause you to be very self-upgraded; you'll never get anything in returns. Watch out your attitudes..!! Be wise to people..

-Respect people as how you wanted them to respect you.

- DOA!!! Start your first step, stepping out your house, don't forget to say, bismillahirrahmanirrahim... Not just when you're leaving the house, make it a habit to recite the Holy word whenever you're doing any procedures.. InsyaAllah, your path will be easier...

Huhu.. That's all for mind-sharing today!

May Allah bless you....

Me as a Staff Nurse

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.....

Assalammualaikum wbt....

Here again, I apologize for the long leaving without any notification done..! I'm back! The new version of me~

For so long, I didn't write here. For my blog, I missed you, so much..

Ok guys, Alhamdulillah, Thank Allah for the graceful opportunity and golden chance He granted me. I've already being hired as a registered STAFF NURSE in one of private hospital in Melaka. Thank you Allah, for everything!

Ok. Now let me update to you 1 by 1...

I was actually got 2 offers from 2 different hospitals and places. 1 was in Malacca and the other 1 was in Ipoh. To be honest, I was struggling all over semenanjung just to try any luck everywhere. I, at first was offered to join one of private hospital in Ipoh but at the same time, I was too hoping that I would get the offer from Malacca, So I could consider both pros and cons of these hospitals. The HR manager of Ipoh Hospital called me as he really wanted me to work there. But, due to some considerations, I had to refuse the offer.. And Thank you Allah, again, I was called for a job in Malacca. And, here I am now.. Syukur Alhamdulillah...

Started on 15th of March 2011, I wore my new uniform (with nursing cap-which I never had before) and walked to the nursing department with a new spirit as a staff nurse. Being alone in an orientation program was really hilarious, but that was the fact! I was the only candidate in the room! haha~ But, the nice thing was, I could directly absorb the knowledge they wanted to give to me. Alhamdulillah... I had so much tests during my orientation program.. From pharmacology to drug calculation, all procedures which somehow I locked it in a room inside of my brain :) Much efforts for me to pull them out and the worst thing was I had to search for them-scattered everywhere!

24th of March.
I was placed in my permanent ward. Surgical ward! I never imagined that I would be placed in this ward but now, here I am.. Trying a bit hard to catch up everything in depth. Here, we don't have any Housemen or Medical Officers.. ONLY consultants! Which means that, we have to do all procedures that usually done by the housemen. I was so shocked at the 1st time in the ward. We acted like the HO for the consultants, follow rounds, explain regarding pt's conditions, analyze results- all are compulsory! I have no time to be like before. I need to feed my self with all skills and knowledge for sure!!! Hurm, hopefully, I could speed myself up to be a trusted nurse for my patients.

So far, today is my 3rd day in the ward. Most of people said that my ward is the most horrible place to work, but, yet I don't think so. And I hope this feeling would permanently maintained as now~ Throw away all negative thinkings, make it as positive as I can..

As for now, I realized, I LOVE TO BE A NURSE. I love taking care of my patients. Seriously. I was like crying, deep down in my heart, not because I am sad. NO. I was so thankful that I got this job. NURSING is a noble profession, and to all my juniors, never feel regret because at the end of the day, you might feel the same way as what I feel right now. Be sincere in whatever you do, because the patient knows and of course the Almighty, KNOWS everything we do. InsyaAllah, good deeds will be granted with good things too... Believe in Allah!

Oh ya, especially to my Mental Health and Psychology lecturer during my 3rd year in UKM, -Mr Utharas-Thanx a lot. Even though I had never put an interest in your subject, but somehow, I was in debt of thanks because now I realized the important of your subject - even though I was once getting headache in your class :)

To all lecturers, Thank you so much!
Friends, let's fight to the moon~

Pray for me ya!

Sedih.

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

Assalammualaikum wbt...

Dear bloggers,

Hari ni, saya rasa sedih sangat2.. Sepatutnya, kalau blk rumah, rasa happy.. Tapi saya sebaliknya pula.. Rasa macam maw meninggalkan a HOME... Rasa serasi sangat d sini.. Even though, I know i'm not really originated from here but yet, I do feel like I belong here! Feel like there's peacefulness, Tranquility, Happiness here.. which I didn't have the courage to make it happens at home.

To compare both places, they are similar.

But, there's emptiness which I couldn't Hide at all.

Apa masalah saya ni? hurm.... Please, cheer up!!

. CHEER UP!
. CHEER UP LA.....!
. CHEER UP2 LAAAAAA....... :(

Since few days back, saya sda rasa macam ni.. Rasa sedey sangat.. Lpas ni, klau nmpak Petronas, mst rasa sebak. sayu. Pilu. Harap2 syndrome ni x lama.. Pasal petronas, 1 hal.. Pasal my second home ni pula.... Hurm.... Allah ja tau cammana perasaan saya sekarang ni.. Macam ada satu aura yang nda maw lepaskan saya pergi.. Apa tu...?

Love. ya.... Kasih sayang. Keceriaan. Kemesraan.

That's all that I need...

and YOU...

PLEASE...

hUrm...

Tu ja la dulu ya...

Please Pray for me ya...

Ahlan Wassahlan...

What Should I Do?

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

Assalammualaikum wbt...

Hurm... Secara officialnya, sy sda berhenti kerja dr PSS Lokkawi.. Memang berat hati meninggalkan tempat tu.. Banyak kenangan pahit manis di sana.. Lumrah alam, SETIAP PERTEMUAN PASTI ADA PERPISAHAN... Doa saya utk semua, agar sentiasa di bawah rahmat Allah SWT dan sentiasa ceria untuk majukan PSS Lokkawi tersayang...

Lately ni, sy banyak melayan crita2 korea.. bukanlah cerita2, tp 1 cerita ja pun.. huhu.. You're beautiful. huhu... Best crita ni.. Hurmm...bagi ja la, crita korea mana yang sy x layan.. semua layan ja.. Ngam lagi kalau lagu2 yg best.. Makin menjadi2 la saya.. huuu....

Semakin hari, semakin berdebar saya fikirkan hari mau berlepas.. Kali ni saya berlepas sebagai seseorang yang mahu mencari kerja, dan bukan lagi sebagai seorang mahasiswa, STUDENT, mahupun yang sama makna dengannya.. Berdebar memikirkan, cammanalah saya d sana nnt..? Saya akan tinggalkan negeri kesayangan saya.. Lebih2 lagi keluarga saya yang terchinta.. Setelah semua perkara yang telah menimpa keluarga saya, Kini saya terpaksa membawa diri..

Mohon doa dari anda semua..

Hurm, saya br ja recover from sudden fever.. Nda tawla, maybe sedey maw kluar dr PSS Lokkawi.. huhu... Kengkawan laen pon terjangkit juga.. huhu.. Cepat2 sembuh taw!

Ok la, Keep on following ek!

Ahlan Wassahlan....


*Hati adalah sesuatu yang paling sukar difahami.. Oleh kerna itu, peliharalah ia agar tidak tersesat dan terpesong pada lauan gelap...*

Suatu Ketika..

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.....

Bismillahitawakkaltu a'lAllah....

Assalammualaikum wbt...

Sedar x sedar, 2010 sda lama tinggalkan kita. Pergi dengan berjuta2 kenangan, peristiwa. Yang pahit, yang manis, yang duka, yang gembira. Yang dijangka, apalagi yang tidak dijangka. Life is full of surprises, and YES. Life=Learning. Cdt to Mr Learner :)

On behalf of me, myself. I apologized for the long silence I did here. Ketiadaan internet menyukarkan segala pergerakan. terutama sekali bab menaip2 ni. huhu..

Oh. Azam Baru?

1st of all, Belated Welcome the brand new 2011!

Each new year, at some point, will make us to think what we had done in the past, what should we do in the future. Right? I'm quite sure, most of bloggers will have some kind of post to story out their past history in the past year and for sure the most "dream-able" wishes they wanted to have in the coming year.

As for me,

1)I want to have a permanent job. Ok, saya rindu mahu jadi nurse! Harap2 this 2011 will bring lots of happiness and success for me. Doa2kan saya ya?

2)Be a better person, a good wife. haha. Cakap pasal wife2 ni, xtaula... umur semakin meningkat, kan? Kalau sampai seru, Allah pertemukan jodoh, InsyaAllah, melangkah ke alam baru. Semuanya berkat doa anda semua. Mohon yang baik2 aja ya?

banyak lagi.

But un-writable.

To all my friends, blog readers, thanx for following me without JEMU.

BIARLAH UKHUWAH KITA BERKEKALAN.

Halalkan segala ilmu dan perkongsian ya..

Maafkan saya if any of my posts before, menyebabkan inconvenience condition dan uncomfortable situation, while reading it. Be blessed ya!

Selamat tinggal 2010, Welcome 2011.

Yang tengah study, sila blajar rajin2. Graduate cepat2 ya! Good luck!

Ahlan wassahlan!

My destiny

As-salam...


When talking about destiny, I feel scared.


Am I ready enough for this?


I always wanted to know, who is my destiny, who will be my partner of my lifetime.


I'm sure you too, no exception right?


But, only Allah swt knows this. His secret.


Then, I gradually asked myself, from time to time, Why do I want to know this secret so much?


Allah has the best choice for us, even not here, for surely in hereafter..


Yet, I still feel scared.


Wanna know why?


I am afraid that I can't be the best wife for my husband.


The best mother for my children.


Again, I recite my prayers to the Almighty, Please, keep me in your bless..


Protect me from those unwanted deeds and feels.


I cried everytime I think about my destiny.

I'm worried.


Oh Allah, please guide me through this hard way..


Grant me with your love and the best choice for me.


Please don't let the mistakes happen again and please, hold me tight as I always tried to..




Dear friends,
please pray for me, I wanna be a better person...
S.M.I.L.E

Doa cinta

Ya Allah...

Ku mohon padaMu,

Janganlah Kau jatuhkan hatiku pada tempat yang tidak sepatutnya..

Peliharalah cintaku agar sentiasa tergantung padaMu..

Simpankan cinta insani ku pada insan yang Kau pilih..

Tabahkan hatiku dalam menempuh dilema hidup..

Permudahkan jalan hidupku di alam ini mahupun di kmpg halaman sana..

Cinta yang sekadar cinta, hanya mampu datang dan pergi tanpa mengira apa perasaan hati..

Oh Tuhan, peliharalah aku untuk si dia yang tertulis dalam takdirku..

The 10 ways to win my heart

DAY 9

As-salam..

This current post is the hardest task compared to the others. 

Haha.

Ok, me myself doesn't have any list before.

So, what will I jot down below here, are all that being in my mind right now.

S.P.O.N.T.A.N.E.O.US.L.Y

:)

Dear future husband,

(even I don't know who & where you're right now. May Allah bless you always.)

1) 1st of all, you must love ALLAH; more than others. As simple as that!

2) Love our Prophet Muhammad S.A.W. It's a must :)

3) Win my family's hearts and you will win mine. Can you?

4) I love cats. So you need to love them too, or if you can't, just have a try not to hate them. Bring me a lovely cat, you will get an extra credits!

5) Lots of girl love flowers, and I have no exception to this. I would love to have a bouquet of life roses on my convocation last time. But I didn't get it. So, if you give me, I'll consider you :)

6) Try to know me better. Accept me as what I am now.

7) Guide me to Allah's bless in a very conducive ways. Please never push me.

8) Be matured.

9) Respect me as a woman :)

10) Just be there when I need you. If you can't be visible in front of me, text or listen to me. At least I know, I have someone to share my troubles.

* Seriously, post ini sangat susah. Because only my heart can give the best answer ;) InshaAllah..

S.M.I.L.E always,

The 10 favourite songs

DAY EIGHT


As-salam..


I love all kind of musics. Some songs remind me of specific occasion, event or maybe someone.


1) For the rest of my life - Maher Zain :)


2) Bila Cinta - Gio


3) Doa Perpisahan - Brothers


4) Untukmu Teman - Brothers. This song would remind me of YSKL life. I really miss the moment.YSKL Batch 2000-2004, remember this? :)


5) Bertakhta di hati - Farahdhiya


6) Wanita - De Hearty. This song really makes me feel so appreciated as a woman. Full of advices which can guide me to be a good muslimah. InshaAllah.


7) Ada cinta - Acha & Irwansyah


8) Epilog Silam - Haikal. I cried so many times when I listened to this song. Very touching and went straight to my soul.


9)  Muhasabah Diri - EdCoustic. A very good 'soul-cleaning' song!


10) Doa Seorang Kekasih - In Team. One of my prayers to Allah, everyday. I believed Allah always listen to all my wishes.' Ya Allah, ku mohon apa yang telah Kau takdirkan. Ku harap dia adalah yang terbaik buatku...' Ameen...


S.M.I.L.E always,

The 10 things I can't live without

DAY SIX


As-salam..


Let's move on to the next topic. emm, Things I can't live without?


1) Doa Mama. Prayers from a mother is such a bless for me and for sure, I can't live without it.


2) Solat. There's no meaningful life without solat and we can't live without a meaningful life, kan?


3) Handphone. Everyone already acknowledged with the function of this asset. So, same goes to me. Eventhough no incoming calls, no new text messages, no new mms received..  No matter how silent you're, You're still a part of me. :)


4) My Pink Laptop. The blog routine goes on by using this! I love blogging, anyway~


5) Pinky toothbrush. >_<


6) Blanket. I can't (sleep well = live) without a blanket. It's Ok if it's not a pink colour blanket. At least ada and it stays besides me. No matter it's cold or not. I need to have a blanket. Ok, this is an addition to the DAY ONE post. haha. extra cdt for all of you!


7) Handkerchief. I need to cover my mouth and nose anytime I sneezes. So, I'll bring at least one inside my bags. I can't live without my saviour!


8) Musics. All genres. Prefer nasyids and sentimental songs. Suitable for my soul :)


9) My Spectacles! I'll rather stay at home quietly than walk blindly without my 'telescope'! haha.


10) Money and money and money. For that, I need to have a job! So you tell me now, who can live without this 10th item? huhu. You answer me :)

Much more that I didn't put in the list above. For sure, it's just for 10. There goes 10 :)


S.M.I.L.E always,

The 10 things about me

DAY ONE


As-salam...


1) I am an ordinary person, lived 23years on earth, Alhamdulillah~


2) Youngest, out of 3 siblings.. But sorry to say, I am not having that MANJALITIS disease yer...


3) I'm a CAT-LOVER. YES. i'll definitely Love cats. Currently, I have 5 cats at home. They are: Kingkong, Chombi, Comot, Galang & Piyu. Please don't ask me again. Yes, I love them all!


4) People always laugh at my sneezes. For those yg slalu laugh at me, They knew it. :p


5) My family noticed that I'm good in remembering other people's birth date. Hurm~ You know why? Because Birthday wishes are something that would make people happy and smile always. Because I do.


6) Chengeng. Kadang2 la... Tears come out for reasons..


7) Hard to share my own problems unless you're so closed to me. Oh my God, I missed Pipit and Salwa. :(


8) I'm a friendship-keeper. I treasure all my friends but unfortunately, some of them didn't have the same feelings as I have. Nevermind, you judge when you know me. I had a best friend when I was in standard 1, SK Darau Menggatal. Nuryanis Achmad. I really missed you, girl. If  you're reading this, please respond! I was crying all night long when i missed you< in the past laa, after I moved to Sipitang> I wanna see you!


9) Very 'sensitive' to this little tiny insect. I would rather run, leave the toilet, scream, or other else if I see this thing. I HATE COCKROACHES!! shuuuuuuh2!


10) Pink colour fan! Amazingly, this colour attracted me so much!