As-salam...

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

Minta maaf, lama x update blog.. Apa khabar rakan blogger sekalian? Semoga di bawah perlindungan Allah SWT..

Kawan2,

Hidup saya makin lama makin complicated.. Apa perlu saya buat ni?

Hidup saya penuh drama..

Besar ujian Allah untuk sy kali ni...

Mohon doa nya ya...

Semoga sy tabah hadapi semuanya dengan REDHA...

Amin ya Rabb....

My destiny

As-salam...


When talking about destiny, I feel scared.


Am I ready enough for this?


I always wanted to know, who is my destiny, who will be my partner of my lifetime.


I'm sure you too, no exception right?


But, only Allah swt knows this. His secret.


Then, I gradually asked myself, from time to time, Why do I want to know this secret so much?


Allah has the best choice for us, even not here, for surely in hereafter..


Yet, I still feel scared.


Wanna know why?


I am afraid that I can't be the best wife for my husband.


The best mother for my children.


Again, I recite my prayers to the Almighty, Please, keep me in your bless..


Protect me from those unwanted deeds and feels.


I cried everytime I think about my destiny.

I'm worried.


Oh Allah, please guide me through this hard way..


Grant me with your love and the best choice for me.


Please don't let the mistakes happen again and please, hold me tight as I always tried to..




Dear friends,
please pray for me, I wanna be a better person...
S.M.I.L.E

Tarapapa..

As-salam..

. Duhai hati..

. Bersabarlah..

. Manusia ni macam2 karenah.. Betul..

Dari hati,

Doa cinta

Ya Allah...

Ku mohon padaMu,

Janganlah Kau jatuhkan hatiku pada tempat yang tidak sepatutnya..

Peliharalah cintaku agar sentiasa tergantung padaMu..

Simpankan cinta insani ku pada insan yang Kau pilih..

Tabahkan hatiku dalam menempuh dilema hidup..

Permudahkan jalan hidupku di alam ini mahupun di kmpg halaman sana..

Cinta yang sekadar cinta, hanya mampu datang dan pergi tanpa mengira apa perasaan hati..

Oh Tuhan, peliharalah aku untuk si dia yang tertulis dalam takdirku..

The ambition I wanted to be when I was schooling

As-salam..

Done with the 10 tasks, now I have created for my own revision. Haha. It was fun to have a 'side-order' task on my routine blog. It makes me feel so enthusiastic to visit my blog frequently as long as I can finish my tasks :)


When I was young, I was so ambitious to be:


1) A doctor. Yes. I had always wanted to be a doctor. No matter how many times my parents or my teachers or my friends asked me, I will have the same answer. DOCTOR. This is my 1st ambition that I noticed since I was a kid. Maybe, I had a very deep interest in this medical field, until one time, my mother told me that I asked her to buy me a set of 'doctor-kit' for me. I was never remember that moment. Haha. I was so proud that I am so ambitious even during I had no idea what a doctor's life would be in the future. My mum also told me that I always did PE(Physical Examination) to my Datuk, and again, I don't remember when. But somehow, it makes my tears drop on my cheek. I failed to be a doctor in profession :( Hurmm... but I will never give up. I'm sure Allah has a very magnificent faith for me in the future. I believe in You, Allah Almighty.


2) A police. Haha. I remember this. When I was in standard 1 (SK Darau Menggatal), we had this kind of record book where we had to a\write our 3 ambitions on it. For sure, the 1st choice would be the one I stated up here. Then, I left out the 2 boxes empty. Then our teacher enforced me to write the other 2. With no idea at all, I just put POLICE as one of my choice. haha. Hillarious laa... I never thought that I could be a POLICEWOMAN. hehe. I don't even qualified kot!


3) A scientist. Hurmmmm. This is the common ambition that always been written in the diary, biography of primary school students right? Haha. Until now, I don't know what is the specific job of a scientist. A biotechnologist? huhuhu.... Ambition with no pictures. Kanak2... :)


4) A teacher. Maybe. I had a photograph of me holding a rottan on one one just like an ustazah. haha. malu sangat bila saya tgk gambar itu! ^__^


5) I always tell my mum that I wanted to buy a big house, big car and makes lots of money for my mum. Hurm... Now I'm looking forward for this! InshaAllah, mama.. I keep my immature promises!


6) I wanted to fly away from my home town. During my primary school, I was the only child who stayed with my parents at home while my 2 brothers were studying abroad. Not overseas laa.. In Selangor and Sarawak. I also had an ambition to ride with a flight, studing abroad like my brother did. Alhamdulillah, I was offered with Yayasan Sabah's scholarship. When I was, not yet 13, I was flying over to Negeri Sembilan, which thank God, I reached this ambition.


7) Oh yeah, I always wanted to study in Boarding School when I was in standard 6. But the only 1 school that I knew was Sekolah Menengah Sains Sabah (SMASH). After UPSR, I was hoping that I would be accepted to be in this school but unfortunately, I had no offer from SMASH. I was so sad but keep on waiting for Yayasan Sabah's offer. Alhamdulillah, not so long after that, I got an offer from Yayasan Sabah to study in my former secondary school, Kolej Tunku Kurshiah (TKC). Alhamdulillah...... Actually, on the day Iwas about to fly to KL, I got an offer from SMS Labuan too.. but because of my fairytale ambition, I rejected it. I wanna fly2! :p


8) I don't care what people might say this. But I always wanted to have a very happily ever after family. On my Own. Haha. Sounds ridiculous is it? I seriously dream of this every day since I was a kid :)


*Regardless of how many ambitions we had in the past, we still need to have at least 1 ambition to be achieved now so we won't regret what we had targeted before :)
Jangan putus asa!

S.M.I.L.E

:)

M.C

As-salam..


Hari ni sy terpaksa ambil day off lagi.. MC la jawabnya.. Bertolak dari rumah kul 5.20am.. and reached Lokkawi by 5.45am..


Lepas tu beriya2 la sy meng-iron baju uniform kesayangan.. Tp hati rasa x sedap coz smalam dah kena sudden fever.. Pagi td mmg rs sangat xberdaya.. Tp sy kuatkan hati juga sbb x igt phone number station..


After breakfast with milo and 3 pieces of biscuits, I felt nauseated. Apa lagi, vomiting la pula. erm.. Rs x larat pula.


Ni maybe sbb penat sangat kot. Dan berjangkit dgn kazen2 b4 balik Papar smalam.


Lepas minta cuti ngan SV, sy blk umah. Tidur skejap and dalam kul 10.30am sy pegi klinik.


Sy dtg utk minta ubat. Tp dia, si 'perawat' itu bersyarah pula pasal profession saya. Sy x puas hati sangat sbb dia ckp kami bdk fresh graduate nurses ni kluar with ZERO-SKILLS. He even compared us dgn batch diploma. 'Perawat' yg slalu ulang perkataan, secara personal lah kan,  ni cakap diploma nurses kluar with skills tp we're not. 


Malas nak balas balik sbb tgh berat mulut. 


Tp banyak perkara dalam kepala sy utk balas blk apa yg dia syarahkan pd sy.


PELUANG. ya. Si doktor itu perlu tahu pa maksud kata kunci ni.

Cakap pasal smalam. Terharu pulak dgn kucing2 saya.


Smalam, Kingkong, Comot, Galang & Piyu tidur ngan saya kat atas katil.. Suma temankan saya tdr. Thanx syg2ku...


Rindu sangat ngan dorang..


Ni la sbb sy sangat sygkan kucing..

To mama, Thanx jugak sbb temankan aya tdur smalam.. Love you so much..


To all friends, doakan sy cepat sembuh ya.. Tq so much..


Esok keja. Harap2 sy kuat!


S.M.I.L.E slalu....

The 10 Final words

DAY 10


As-salam...


So, this one is the last task. Here goes:

. Siapa .
. yang .
. belum .
. try .
. cubalah .
. saya .
. pasti .
. mesti .
. sangat .
. seronok! .


Hehe.. Finish already..
Enjoy juga for me and hopefully you too!
Thanx sooooo much for following my blog ea?


S.M.I.L.E selalu! :)