E.X.C.I.T.E.D

As salam.

Saya sangat gumbira.

Mahu terbang!

Tggu saya.

I'll be there so soon.

Rindu mo jumpa kawan2 lama!

Pray for my safe journey ya. I'm flying with my mum!!

As-salam...

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

Minta maaf, lama x update blog.. Apa khabar rakan blogger sekalian? Semoga di bawah perlindungan Allah SWT..

Kawan2,

Hidup saya makin lama makin complicated.. Apa perlu saya buat ni?

Hidup saya penuh drama..

Besar ujian Allah untuk sy kali ni...

Mohon doa nya ya...

Semoga sy tabah hadapi semuanya dengan REDHA...

Amin ya Rabb....

My destiny

As-salam...


When talking about destiny, I feel scared.


Am I ready enough for this?


I always wanted to know, who is my destiny, who will be my partner of my lifetime.


I'm sure you too, no exception right?


But, only Allah swt knows this. His secret.


Then, I gradually asked myself, from time to time, Why do I want to know this secret so much?


Allah has the best choice for us, even not here, for surely in hereafter..


Yet, I still feel scared.


Wanna know why?


I am afraid that I can't be the best wife for my husband.


The best mother for my children.


Again, I recite my prayers to the Almighty, Please, keep me in your bless..


Protect me from those unwanted deeds and feels.


I cried everytime I think about my destiny.

I'm worried.


Oh Allah, please guide me through this hard way..


Grant me with your love and the best choice for me.


Please don't let the mistakes happen again and please, hold me tight as I always tried to..




Dear friends,
please pray for me, I wanna be a better person...
S.M.I.L.E

Tarapapa..

As-salam..

. Duhai hati..

. Bersabarlah..

. Manusia ni macam2 karenah.. Betul..

Dari hati,

Doa cinta

Ya Allah...

Ku mohon padaMu,

Janganlah Kau jatuhkan hatiku pada tempat yang tidak sepatutnya..

Peliharalah cintaku agar sentiasa tergantung padaMu..

Simpankan cinta insani ku pada insan yang Kau pilih..

Tabahkan hatiku dalam menempuh dilema hidup..

Permudahkan jalan hidupku di alam ini mahupun di kmpg halaman sana..

Cinta yang sekadar cinta, hanya mampu datang dan pergi tanpa mengira apa perasaan hati..

Oh Tuhan, peliharalah aku untuk si dia yang tertulis dalam takdirku..

The ambition I wanted to be when I was schooling

As-salam..

Done with the 10 tasks, now I have created for my own revision. Haha. It was fun to have a 'side-order' task on my routine blog. It makes me feel so enthusiastic to visit my blog frequently as long as I can finish my tasks :)


When I was young, I was so ambitious to be:


1) A doctor. Yes. I had always wanted to be a doctor. No matter how many times my parents or my teachers or my friends asked me, I will have the same answer. DOCTOR. This is my 1st ambition that I noticed since I was a kid. Maybe, I had a very deep interest in this medical field, until one time, my mother told me that I asked her to buy me a set of 'doctor-kit' for me. I was never remember that moment. Haha. I was so proud that I am so ambitious even during I had no idea what a doctor's life would be in the future. My mum also told me that I always did PE(Physical Examination) to my Datuk, and again, I don't remember when. But somehow, it makes my tears drop on my cheek. I failed to be a doctor in profession :( Hurmm... but I will never give up. I'm sure Allah has a very magnificent faith for me in the future. I believe in You, Allah Almighty.


2) A police. Haha. I remember this. When I was in standard 1 (SK Darau Menggatal), we had this kind of record book where we had to a\write our 3 ambitions on it. For sure, the 1st choice would be the one I stated up here. Then, I left out the 2 boxes empty. Then our teacher enforced me to write the other 2. With no idea at all, I just put POLICE as one of my choice. haha. Hillarious laa... I never thought that I could be a POLICEWOMAN. hehe. I don't even qualified kot!


3) A scientist. Hurmmmm. This is the common ambition that always been written in the diary, biography of primary school students right? Haha. Until now, I don't know what is the specific job of a scientist. A biotechnologist? huhuhu.... Ambition with no pictures. Kanak2... :)


4) A teacher. Maybe. I had a photograph of me holding a rottan on one one just like an ustazah. haha. malu sangat bila saya tgk gambar itu! ^__^


5) I always tell my mum that I wanted to buy a big house, big car and makes lots of money for my mum. Hurm... Now I'm looking forward for this! InshaAllah, mama.. I keep my immature promises!


6) I wanted to fly away from my home town. During my primary school, I was the only child who stayed with my parents at home while my 2 brothers were studying abroad. Not overseas laa.. In Selangor and Sarawak. I also had an ambition to ride with a flight, studing abroad like my brother did. Alhamdulillah, I was offered with Yayasan Sabah's scholarship. When I was, not yet 13, I was flying over to Negeri Sembilan, which thank God, I reached this ambition.


7) Oh yeah, I always wanted to study in Boarding School when I was in standard 6. But the only 1 school that I knew was Sekolah Menengah Sains Sabah (SMASH). After UPSR, I was hoping that I would be accepted to be in this school but unfortunately, I had no offer from SMASH. I was so sad but keep on waiting for Yayasan Sabah's offer. Alhamdulillah, not so long after that, I got an offer from Yayasan Sabah to study in my former secondary school, Kolej Tunku Kurshiah (TKC). Alhamdulillah...... Actually, on the day Iwas about to fly to KL, I got an offer from SMS Labuan too.. but because of my fairytale ambition, I rejected it. I wanna fly2! :p


8) I don't care what people might say this. But I always wanted to have a very happily ever after family. On my Own. Haha. Sounds ridiculous is it? I seriously dream of this every day since I was a kid :)


*Regardless of how many ambitions we had in the past, we still need to have at least 1 ambition to be achieved now so we won't regret what we had targeted before :)
Jangan putus asa!

S.M.I.L.E

:)

M.C

As-salam..


Hari ni sy terpaksa ambil day off lagi.. MC la jawabnya.. Bertolak dari rumah kul 5.20am.. and reached Lokkawi by 5.45am..


Lepas tu beriya2 la sy meng-iron baju uniform kesayangan.. Tp hati rasa x sedap coz smalam dah kena sudden fever.. Pagi td mmg rs sangat xberdaya.. Tp sy kuatkan hati juga sbb x igt phone number station..


After breakfast with milo and 3 pieces of biscuits, I felt nauseated. Apa lagi, vomiting la pula. erm.. Rs x larat pula.


Ni maybe sbb penat sangat kot. Dan berjangkit dgn kazen2 b4 balik Papar smalam.


Lepas minta cuti ngan SV, sy blk umah. Tidur skejap and dalam kul 10.30am sy pegi klinik.


Sy dtg utk minta ubat. Tp dia, si 'perawat' itu bersyarah pula pasal profession saya. Sy x puas hati sangat sbb dia ckp kami bdk fresh graduate nurses ni kluar with ZERO-SKILLS. He even compared us dgn batch diploma. 'Perawat' yg slalu ulang perkataan, secara personal lah kan,  ni cakap diploma nurses kluar with skills tp we're not. 


Malas nak balas balik sbb tgh berat mulut. 


Tp banyak perkara dalam kepala sy utk balas blk apa yg dia syarahkan pd sy.


PELUANG. ya. Si doktor itu perlu tahu pa maksud kata kunci ni.

Cakap pasal smalam. Terharu pulak dgn kucing2 saya.


Smalam, Kingkong, Comot, Galang & Piyu tidur ngan saya kat atas katil.. Suma temankan saya tdr. Thanx syg2ku...


Rindu sangat ngan dorang..


Ni la sbb sy sangat sygkan kucing..

To mama, Thanx jugak sbb temankan aya tdur smalam.. Love you so much..


To all friends, doakan sy cepat sembuh ya.. Tq so much..


Esok keja. Harap2 sy kuat!


S.M.I.L.E slalu....

The 10 Final words

DAY 10


As-salam...


So, this one is the last task. Here goes:

. Siapa .
. yang .
. belum .
. try .
. cubalah .
. saya .
. pasti .
. mesti .
. sangat .
. seronok! .


Hehe.. Finish already..
Enjoy juga for me and hopefully you too!
Thanx sooooo much for following my blog ea?


S.M.I.L.E selalu! :)

The 10 ways to win my heart

DAY 9

As-salam..

This current post is the hardest task compared to the others. 

Haha.

Ok, me myself doesn't have any list before.

So, what will I jot down below here, are all that being in my mind right now.

S.P.O.N.T.A.N.E.O.US.L.Y

:)

Dear future husband,

(even I don't know who & where you're right now. May Allah bless you always.)

1) 1st of all, you must love ALLAH; more than others. As simple as that!

2) Love our Prophet Muhammad S.A.W. It's a must :)

3) Win my family's hearts and you will win mine. Can you?

4) I love cats. So you need to love them too, or if you can't, just have a try not to hate them. Bring me a lovely cat, you will get an extra credits!

5) Lots of girl love flowers, and I have no exception to this. I would love to have a bouquet of life roses on my convocation last time. But I didn't get it. So, if you give me, I'll consider you :)

6) Try to know me better. Accept me as what I am now.

7) Guide me to Allah's bless in a very conducive ways. Please never push me.

8) Be matured.

9) Respect me as a woman :)

10) Just be there when I need you. If you can't be visible in front of me, text or listen to me. At least I know, I have someone to share my troubles.

* Seriously, post ini sangat susah. Because only my heart can give the best answer ;) InshaAllah..

S.M.I.L.E always,

The 10 favourite songs

DAY EIGHT


As-salam..


I love all kind of musics. Some songs remind me of specific occasion, event or maybe someone.


1) For the rest of my life - Maher Zain :)


2) Bila Cinta - Gio


3) Doa Perpisahan - Brothers


4) Untukmu Teman - Brothers. This song would remind me of YSKL life. I really miss the moment.YSKL Batch 2000-2004, remember this? :)


5) Bertakhta di hati - Farahdhiya


6) Wanita - De Hearty. This song really makes me feel so appreciated as a woman. Full of advices which can guide me to be a good muslimah. InshaAllah.


7) Ada cinta - Acha & Irwansyah


8) Epilog Silam - Haikal. I cried so many times when I listened to this song. Very touching and went straight to my soul.


9)  Muhasabah Diri - EdCoustic. A very good 'soul-cleaning' song!


10) Doa Seorang Kekasih - In Team. One of my prayers to Allah, everyday. I believed Allah always listen to all my wishes.' Ya Allah, ku mohon apa yang telah Kau takdirkan. Ku harap dia adalah yang terbaik buatku...' Ameen...


S.M.I.L.E always,

The 10 important people

DAY 7


As-salam..


1) My parents. Who am I, without both of them? 


2) My brothers. The two brothers who always care for me. I love you both, Abg Long & Abg Ngah!


3) My nephews & niece. The 3 kids at home : Syahrul Ramadhan, Syamsul Rizwan & Farisya Maisara. You've brighten Uchu's day! Uchu sayang semua! Mmmmmmuahx!


4) My aunties & Uncles. They keep supporting me whenever I'm down to the earth or even to fly away to the sky. I'll never forget all your kindness to me. May Allah keeps you in His Rahmah and bless you with Hidayah. 


5) My cousins. No complete sisterhood and brotherhood without all of you. You've completed it. Thank you very much!


6) Fithriyani Mohd Sanusi. Your kindness and advices gave a booster to my soul. You're my soulmate! Just cant believe we have the same job now :)


7) Salwa Selamat. I owe you. Thank you soooooo much for spending most of our valuable time together. 2nd Soulmate ;)


8) Friends. I won't be able to stand up on this earth without your hands, guys. Let's keep our friendship standstill forever!


9) An ENT specialist. ops.I need nasal spray ;)


and, last but not least,


10) YOU. Yup. The one who keeps on following my blog. Because I know you will pray for each of my dream and wishes I wrote in this blog. That's why you're so important person to me. Thank you very much! May Allah grants you happiness in life now and hereafter. Ameen.

The 10 things I can't live without

DAY SIX


As-salam..


Let's move on to the next topic. emm, Things I can't live without?


1) Doa Mama. Prayers from a mother is such a bless for me and for sure, I can't live without it.


2) Solat. There's no meaningful life without solat and we can't live without a meaningful life, kan?


3) Handphone. Everyone already acknowledged with the function of this asset. So, same goes to me. Eventhough no incoming calls, no new text messages, no new mms received..  No matter how silent you're, You're still a part of me. :)


4) My Pink Laptop. The blog routine goes on by using this! I love blogging, anyway~


5) Pinky toothbrush. >_<


6) Blanket. I can't (sleep well = live) without a blanket. It's Ok if it's not a pink colour blanket. At least ada and it stays besides me. No matter it's cold or not. I need to have a blanket. Ok, this is an addition to the DAY ONE post. haha. extra cdt for all of you!


7) Handkerchief. I need to cover my mouth and nose anytime I sneezes. So, I'll bring at least one inside my bags. I can't live without my saviour!


8) Musics. All genres. Prefer nasyids and sentimental songs. Suitable for my soul :)


9) My Spectacles! I'll rather stay at home quietly than walk blindly without my 'telescope'! haha.


10) Money and money and money. For that, I need to have a job! So you tell me now, who can live without this 10th item? huhu. You answer me :)

Much more that I didn't put in the list above. For sure, it's just for 10. There goes 10 :)


S.M.I.L.E always,

Trip to Sipitang & Lawas 26.10.10

As-salam..


. Today, everything went so well.
. I'm proud to be one of Petronas Crews!
. I'll try my best to perform all promises we made today.
Code-I : S.M.I.L.E


I was so astounded with the scrumptious dishes I ate during lunch today. All the ketams, udangs, ulams..dll.. huuu~

. abes sda :) 

But the most scariest part was, I had lunch with 13 bosses, which were almost half of station owners all over Sabah!

. Boss2 laen x masuk gmbr :)

Can you imagine, me < a new crew, pekerja biasa berjawatan cashier> can have lunch with all heads of Petronas station < which were all the kepala2 kat stesen Petronas kt Sabah > .. Haha. I felt lyke being at the center of a rich island!
Dah rezeki saya kan. Thank You Allah!
Ni suma pasal budak2 PA x datang keja pg td.. terpaksalah saya sorang2 ja pegi ngan boss.


But I never feel isolated. Mr Jack, my boss was soooo sporting and same goes to all other bosses! :)

. Tq Mr Boss! ;)

Yang penting, saya dapat kawan2 baru!

. Lawas PSS Crew.

To all, nice to meet you guys!


Esok masuk post.. 
. Good Luck Aya .


S.M.I.L.E always :)

The 10 wishes

DAY FIVE


As-salam..


Ok, here goes some wishes which appear in my mind now:


1) I want to have a blissful life for the past, now and future. Granted with a happy marriage, beloved family till the end of my time.


2)Wanna perform umrah and Hajj in Makkah with my family and also with my future husband. Seriously, sgt mahu! This is the biggest hope I've ever had in my life.

3) I really wanna go to Australia too. I don't know why or what are the reason for the wish. Maybe, I just wanna be there.


4) To become a very productive, effective STAFF NURSE. To be specific, I want to be in critical care areas, possibly in paediatrics or neonatal units.


5) I wish that I could be the happiest Girl in this world, eventhough it sounds ridiculous. But, well yeah. It's just a wish right.


6) There's a pink-coloured car with a plat number : AYA 8787! Can I have this wish fulfilled??huhu...


7) I wish people will never-ever underestimate my NURSING PROFESSION anymore. It feels so bad.


8) I wish that I could forgive all people in my lifetime, forget all their wrong deeds, and of course for me too. Please forgive me yeah...


9) OH YEAP! i wanna get a SLR- camera. I love taking pictures actually. Thank God I didn't happen to be a photographer. huuu! But more less of having my pictures in there ;)


10) Hope that all my belated thought of wishes will also become true..haha! Ameen...




~Wishes are just wishes.
~Leave it to Allah, nothing is IMPOSSIBLE if HE wants it to be happened. I believe in Allah!


S.M.I.L.E always,

I'm a 'part-timer'...

As-salam...


To all my blog readers,


Finally, I'm working now, as a part time cashier at Petronas depan umah mck saya... hik3..
Tomorrow i'm going for an Outstation to Sipitang and Lawas, maybe.(mengalahkan pekerja office pulak kan..? huhuhu... ada training actually.., tp, sure enjoyable!)
wish me for a safe journey yaa..
huuu...Juz can't believe this as tomorrow would be my only 2nd day of working :)


Today,
SANGAT BEST!
Thumbs up. membuatkan saya mahu bekerja dgn lebih baik!

Chaiyok2 aya!


S.M.I.L.E always.


oH, tambah lagi satu...


M.E.S.R.A :)

The 10 things I want to say to one person

DAY FOUR


As-salam..


To my future husband :)

1) I want you to know that I always recite my prayers to Allah so HE will give me the perfect match for me. And I hope you're the selected one.. Ameen..


2) I hope that you're the one who will guide me throughout our marriage life towards Allah's bless.. Yes, you..


3) I may have lots of slackness, but yet I'll try my best to be the best wife for you. :)


4) Once you are married with me, you're married to my family too. Same goes to me.


5) I'll be there for you to wipe your sadness away, to laugh besides you, to be the one who always care for you and to be isteri solehah for you ; and as ibu mithali for our children.. InshaAllah.


6) I'm gonna be a nurse soon, I'll be working on shift and I really hope that you'll understand that..


7) Please don't be surprise if I love humming, for quite lots of times, hurmm because I love singing.. ;)


8) Oh yeah, I wanna have a pet in our home soon and it will definitely a cat. But, if you don't like cat, pliz try to love it ..I'm begging you... ^__^


9) My sneezes would be irritating if I'm attacked by those allergens I had stated few days back. huhu..


10) Last but not least, you'll be the one and only man in my heart, there's no others as long as you'll be my husband for the rest of my life.. My love for you will eternal forever, I promise. Only ALLAH can take me away from you.. InshaAllah..




* I actually don't know who are the correct person to say these 10 things out. huhu. So, I decided to list the above things for my future husband EVENTHOUGH me, myself doesn't know who is the guy that being selected by Allah for me.. :)


S.M.I.L.E always,

The 10 things I hate

DAY THREE


As-salam...


I hate:


1) Cockroaches. Started to have this insecto-phobia since I had a miserable crush with that flying 'thing'. I tell you, I'm pissed off! Since then, I'm so ALERT with any movement on the floor, wall and everywhere juz to get rid myself from run into this 'LITTLE MONSTER' !!


2) DOGS. Ok, again. I had a bad experience with this creature. It was happened during my matriculation time and seriously, I cant forget that scary moment when 2 dogs apparently chased after me for unknown reasons. Hey, DOGS! Never get close to me, or I'll BEAT U! even though you know I'll get adrenaline rush even when I heard your 'beautiful' barks >_<, RUN!


3) Liar. Hurm~ I guess no one will ever admire a liar. But I'll consider it for reasonable reasons. But, hopefully there's no lies within my life in the future. For those Liars, shuh2! Go away!


4) Allergens. Wanna know why? It keeps me sneezing and scratching. :( But sometimes, prawns become the most delicious meal in front of me. Who can deny it? huuu~


5) STEP MOTHER! 


6) BAD EX-BOYFRIENDS. haha. if you think you're a good bf, just ignore this :)


7) awkward situation. I hate myself when I'm speechless, no words to say. But for sure, I'm a TALK-A-LOT girl, but sometimes, I had to face this situation. I feel so bad for myself :(


8) Missing someone. I feel bad when I'm missing someone because I'll cry for thousand tons of tears even I'd ask myself not to.


9) Lightning. It's not a HATE feeling la, honestly. I'm scared actually.


10) JOBLESS. As I'm now..huhuhhuhuhuhuhu~


I love myself, anyway :)

The 10 things I Love

DAY TWO


As-salam...

I LOVE:


1) ALLAH, the foremost.. He created me and I praise Allah for all the happiness I had in the past, now and in my future, InshaAllah..  I LOVE YOU, ALLAH!


2) Rasullullah SAW- I'am your follower and I'll always love you.. Because I know, your love for your ummat  was never die eventhough we never meet each other.. Your sacrifices for us and Islam, makes me LOVING you forever...


3) Family. I love my family. Yes. I love.


4) CATS. again, I dont have to explain, right :)


5) Singing- this is my hobby.. I can sing everywhere.. hurmm~ I don't know exactly why I like this kind of hobby..haha~ But it makes me feel happy! Can't believe? Just ask my friends..heeee..


6) Pink~ Ok, I adore things with pink colour. I even changed the colour of my room to pink. haha. I had pink coloured laptop (Skin jaa...xda duet mo beli laptop baru gik), pink handphone, pink coloured room, pink socks, clothes, shoes,toothbrush, pink toilet, pink tumbler, pink mouse... what else...? so much! and i'll make sure, some more pink things in the future ;)


7) Travelling; ermm... jalan2 cari pasal..huuuu! I love travelling so much!


8) Soup. I love soup...slurp~ scrumptious dish! Ask my friends how much I love soup! I'll feel a bit weird when there's no soup in my meals..but, it's Ok, for sometimes :)


9) Watching movies~ Any type, but not the 1 colour tau! I love horror movies, but i'll feel scare after that..huhu.


10) Eat. but it caused me so much increase in weight. huhu. doesn't matter laa..yg penting, HAPPY sokmo!

The 10 things about me

DAY ONE


As-salam...


1) I am an ordinary person, lived 23years on earth, Alhamdulillah~


2) Youngest, out of 3 siblings.. But sorry to say, I am not having that MANJALITIS disease yer...


3) I'm a CAT-LOVER. YES. i'll definitely Love cats. Currently, I have 5 cats at home. They are: Kingkong, Chombi, Comot, Galang & Piyu. Please don't ask me again. Yes, I love them all!


4) People always laugh at my sneezes. For those yg slalu laugh at me, They knew it. :p


5) My family noticed that I'm good in remembering other people's birth date. Hurm~ You know why? Because Birthday wishes are something that would make people happy and smile always. Because I do.


6) Chengeng. Kadang2 la... Tears come out for reasons..


7) Hard to share my own problems unless you're so closed to me. Oh my God, I missed Pipit and Salwa. :(


8) I'm a friendship-keeper. I treasure all my friends but unfortunately, some of them didn't have the same feelings as I have. Nevermind, you judge when you know me. I had a best friend when I was in standard 1, SK Darau Menggatal. Nuryanis Achmad. I really missed you, girl. If  you're reading this, please respond! I was crying all night long when i missed you< in the past laa, after I moved to Sipitang> I wanna see you!


9) Very 'sensitive' to this little tiny insect. I would rather run, leave the toilet, scream, or other else if I see this thing. I HATE COCKROACHES!! shuuuuuuh2!


10) Pink colour fan! Amazingly, this colour attracted me so much!

Adapted 10 things

As-salam..

The list below was found from Azwa's blog and also adapted from Ezzura's blog. Thanx girls.

I found this so much interesting!

Let's try this!

day one: ten things about you

day two: ten things you love

day three: ten things you hate

day four: ten things you want to say to one person

day five: ten wishes

day six: ten items you can’t live without

day seven: ten important people

day eight: ten of your favourite songs

day nine: ten ways to win your heart

day ten: ten final words

Selamat mencuba untuk saya! 

S.M.I.L.E always :)