In the name of Allah the most gracious, the most merciful..

I'm feeling like missing my past time which had brighten my days and left so much memories to me..yeah..it was all my good all days..couldn't list out them all but there were a few that really significant to my mind until now..

Oh God, I miss my life in TKC.. the most unforgetable and very sweet memory ever! especially being involved in TKC RHYTHM SQUAD.. i miss my band sooo much! sweet and bitter experiences as junior and moving on as a senior in this band were always embedded in my heart..

yeah.. I enrolled myself into this 'pancaragam' when I was in the end of my first year in TKC.. Taekwondo was not that bad when I decided to join TKC bAND..it was just because I was attracted of the sounds of musics performed by my seniors at the time..thus, there were a few of my collegues and I met the senior and we were audited by playing some instrument..I was asked to play flute and piccolo..haha..

alhamdulillah, I passed it and my seniors agreed to put me into flute section! that was how I was proudly opened a new life as a TKC BAND MEMBER! seriously.. I MISS IT SO MUCH!!!!!!

my first band competition was in year 2001, means that I was in form 2 and really fresh in the band! I had to replace kak erry, which was my senior in my section.. She helped me to learn as fast as I can so that I could play during the comptetion..Besides, I had to replce her in orchestra performance which was a few days after the competition..

It was really tiring and guess what, I was the only junior that involved in both marching band and orchestra during the time.. It was once a painful experience but actually became a key for me to excel in my future performance..sweetest memory!!

National band competition in National Stadium Bukit Jalil was really unforgettable memory which made me cry before we performed.. I was really scared and nervous but at the moment, i could feel the strength bond between us my seniors gave me support and motivated me before we walked into the field of performance!

Actually, there were a lot of experience that I had in this band..maybe, I could share it next time..now, I had to go..preparing my self for dinner!

this is my good old days people~ i am sure u got too!
Come back with a new life.. after all, it's been a TOUGH days which I never dream of.. just like a nightmare that kids would cry if they had one. same goes with me..i hate it so much but, that's life..i couldn't run from it..

Believes that there is something behind all those 'nightmares' make me feel much better.. instead of keep on making fuss on whatever in the past..people might not accept me as what i am..but, yes it is..people, i am what i am..

last nite, when I was about to sleep, my head was spinning around.. suddenly thinking of what is going to happen..besides, there was a poem created on my head which I didn't write it on a piece of paper..

the title is.... if I could, I would..

If I could be a shadow,
I would be yours..
So I could be around with you whereever you are..

If I could have a power,
I would shed all your problems away..
So you could be tranquil as the lake..

If I could be a bird,
I would fly all over the world..
So I could run away from those noisy people..

If I could turn off the clock,
I would turn it back to the day I met you..
So I could tell you that it supposed to be this way..

filling my days being a baby sitter for my nephews was very challenging..never feel better than my life before.. it's much2 better, I bet U! hearing their laughs and looking at their happy faces were somehow fade away all those freaky stuffs inside my head..

My life, it is getting complicated than before.. much2 complicated..this is how I knew what exactly life it is.. ISLAM is the best guideline for us to live..Dear muslim, our religion has given us a guideline on how to be succeed in life.. just follow the path, u won't be wrong..

actually, there are a lot of things that make me realise of my mistakes.. I need some strength so that I could stand on my own feet..and I know, the strength wouldn't come automatically..but it came from the One above.. Almighty ALLAH..

I do realise I had smeared my name.. I was traumatized with those memories.. I wouldn't regret it because it was the way that I choosed to go..I am not going to turn back..but I would find another way to be better than it is..yes, i WILL..

somehow, I do hope that I could be a good person in life..I took all those lessons as a perfect guide to help me survive in this unpredictable- so-called life..I recite my pray to Allah so He will show me the perfect way of life as it is.. ameen..

the good old days..

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In the name of Allah the most gracious, the most merciful..

I'm feeling like missing my past time which had brighten my days and left so much memories to me..yeah..it was all my good all days..couldn't list out them all but there were a few that really significant to my mind until now..

Oh God, I miss my life in TKC.. the most unforgetable and very sweet memory ever! especially being involved in TKC RHYTHM SQUAD.. i miss my band sooo much! sweet and bitter experiences as junior and moving on as a senior in this band were always embedded in my heart..

yeah.. I enrolled myself into this 'pancaragam' when I was in the end of my first year in TKC.. Taekwondo was not that bad when I decided to join TKC bAND..it was just because I was attracted of the sounds of musics performed by my seniors at the time..thus, there were a few of my collegues and I met the senior and we were audited by playing some instrument..I was asked to play flute and piccolo..haha..

alhamdulillah, I passed it and my seniors agreed to put me into flute section! that was how I was proudly opened a new life as a TKC BAND MEMBER! seriously.. I MISS IT SO MUCH!!!!!!

my first band competition was in year 2001, means that I was in form 2 and really fresh in the band! I had to replace kak erry, which was my senior in my section.. She helped me to learn as fast as I can so that I could play during the comptetion..Besides, I had to replce her in orchestra performance which was a few days after the competition..

It was really tiring and guess what, I was the only junior that involved in both marching band and orchestra during the time.. It was once a painful experience but actually became a key for me to excel in my future performance..sweetest memory!!

National band competition in National Stadium Bukit Jalil was really unforgettable memory which made me cry before we performed.. I was really scared and nervous but at the moment, i could feel the strength bond between us my seniors gave me support and motivated me before we walked into the field of performance!

Actually, there were a lot of experience that I had in this band..maybe, I could share it next time..now, I had to go..preparing my self for dinner!

this is my good old days people~ i am sure u got too!

the perfect guide..

0 Comments
Come back with a new life.. after all, it's been a TOUGH days which I never dream of.. just like a nightmare that kids would cry if they had one. same goes with me..i hate it so much but, that's life..i couldn't run from it..

Believes that there is something behind all those 'nightmares' make me feel much better.. instead of keep on making fuss on whatever in the past..people might not accept me as what i am..but, yes it is..people, i am what i am..

last nite, when I was about to sleep, my head was spinning around.. suddenly thinking of what is going to happen..besides, there was a poem created on my head which I didn't write it on a piece of paper..

the title is.... if I could, I would..

If I could be a shadow,
I would be yours..
So I could be around with you whereever you are..

If I could have a power,
I would shed all your problems away..
So you could be tranquil as the lake..

If I could be a bird,
I would fly all over the world..
So I could run away from those noisy people..

If I could turn off the clock,
I would turn it back to the day I met you..
So I could tell you that it supposed to be this way..

filling my days being a baby sitter for my nephews was very challenging..never feel better than my life before.. it's much2 better, I bet U! hearing their laughs and looking at their happy faces were somehow fade away all those freaky stuffs inside my head..

My life, it is getting complicated than before.. much2 complicated..this is how I knew what exactly life it is.. ISLAM is the best guideline for us to live..Dear muslim, our religion has given us a guideline on how to be succeed in life.. just follow the path, u won't be wrong..

actually, there are a lot of things that make me realise of my mistakes.. I need some strength so that I could stand on my own feet..and I know, the strength wouldn't come automatically..but it came from the One above.. Almighty ALLAH..

I do realise I had smeared my name.. I was traumatized with those memories.. I wouldn't regret it because it was the way that I choosed to go..I am not going to turn back..but I would find another way to be better than it is..yes, i WILL..

somehow, I do hope that I could be a good person in life..I took all those lessons as a perfect guide to help me survive in this unpredictable- so-called life..I recite my pray to Allah so He will show me the perfect way of life as it is.. ameen..